My heart is really heavy today - one of my dear friends just found out that she miscarried her first baby.
When Matt and I found out last night, I went into the bathroom and quietly sobbed for her and her husband. I love this couple SO MUCH. They are like family to us and I get so sensitive and hurt when those I love are suffering and going through heartache.
I hate loss. I especially hate the loss of a child, one that was so desperately wanted and patiently waited for. Times like these make my faith feel so very shaky. I don't understand God's will or the stories he writes for us sometimes. I am still struggling with why we lost a child through a failed adoption, why my sweet friend Jess lost a baby late last year, why so much heartache happens to those who put their faith and hope in the Lord.
I am praying for peace today for their hearts. I hope you'll pray for them too.
This is NOT the Lords doing by any means. I pray and hope for your friends to find peace. may you all be blessed
ReplyDeleteI agree that the Lord didn't do this to them, but it happened nonetheless. It's hard to understand why he "allows" these things to happen.
DeleteMy heart hurts for your sweet friend! Having gone through that a few times it is not easy. Especially when your road is not easy to get there in the first place. Time does begin to heal that but it takes a lot of time (at least it did for me). A book that really helped me through that was Hannah's hope. As hard as it was to go through all of that I am so thankful to have been on that road because eventually it gave me the greatest gift I could have ever received. Just like the hard loss you guys went through there were bigger plans than you could have ever imagined too. Praying for her!
ReplyDeleteWhat sad news! I agree that the loss of a child is especially difficult. I'll definitely be praying for your friend!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for their loss. And for your loss last year. I have been following you for a year now and it makes me so sad to see you question Jesus' love. I too have known aching loss in life too, but what gets me through the aching loss is Jesus' love. I think it is the only thing actually that gets us through the awful things. The knowledge that we will see the lost babies in heaven again someday. That our family is waiting for us, by Jesus' side.
ReplyDelete"The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. BLESSED BE THE NAME OF THE LORD." Job 1:21
I think what we can learn from Job is that no matter what happens in life, we must never question God. I TOTALLY understand the times when we cannot, for the life of us, see what His purpose is inside of our pain. But we have to remind ourselves that He is seeing the whole picture, that we cannot see. And we have to trust.
"Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." Hebrews 11:1.
I fixate on that verse inside my darkest hours. "The conviction of things not seen." Conviction. Google defines conviction as "A firmly held belief." We must cherish our firmly held beliefs in God and His love, His purpose, and His desire to "make ALL things work together for good for those who love and obey Him." For better or worse. Blessed be the name of the Lord.
Praying for you all.
Thank you.
DeleteThat is so unfair. A cousin of mine had lost her 1 year old due to internal hemorrhage when he fell off from a chair. I could not imagine their grief. I always think that if that happened to me I would die.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, that is just me being so weak and emotional especially when it comes to my children. Let's just pray that God heal their hearts and give them something to wipe their heartaches away. Just look at this picture, and I hope this makes you smile: http://www.babypics.com/pics/a238/00000004
Sheena ♥