Goodbye 2013

It seems 2013 wasn't a great year for a lot of my loved ones and community. There were lost relationships, medical issues and death to name a few of the hurdles some faced. There was also good - healing, mended friendships, new jobs, new children, fulfillment at moments. 

For me, it felt like a roller coaster. I returned to work in February and had to quickly learn how to balance that with motherhood and wifedom and being a decent friend and daughter. I didn't do it well at times and I felt a deep sadness for missing so much of the everyday of my child. I spent too much time in a state of worry. 

But for each weak season this year, there was redemption. I tried to create some goodness in my life and in the lives of others. I pushed myself to be a woman of my word, to take my responsibilities seriously and to try to be encouraging and kind more than impatient and critical. I loved my family and friends deeply even when things got hard and sticky and uncomfortable.

I am not one for resolutions, but for 2014  I want more adventure in my life, more freedom to pursue a different career, more days of internal sunshine. It's up to me to find this, but until I do, I want to find fulfillment in what I already have. There is so much to be thankful for.

Happy New Year!